#01 MFM - Let's call it "Mission for Mission"

Thinking out loud on how I come to this journey....

Mar 21, 2023

You might stop scrolling to read this, and might not. Actually, to be honest and bold - I don’t give a fuck. I don’t give a fuck because this what I’m doing right here is more important than me, you or your pet. More important, than everything else. This is only about me and my burning urge to do my part in creating a better world for the generations to come. So I do not give a fuck about your bleeding eyes or Bible while writing this. I’m bold. I’m eager to make a change and I will fight for this. If you’ve read this far, you should understand that actually I’ve got many fucks to give, it’s just not personal to anyone. Fire and water in me.

This is my third go at this, in a way.. So let me tell you a little something about my go’s.

The first one was a simple goal of becoming a millionaire, which quickly became an ambition to be a multi-millionaire, which became a wish to be a billionaire. Why? You know why - we all have those fucking egos and want to spend, consume, fuck around on yachts and do all the things that “rich people” do. So I started grinding, developing skills, shaping my mindset for success. I was so dumb that I decided to do something with myself. That was my first go, soon to discover that I’m doing something wrong. I was not a millionaire after 5 years of grind and reading and working hard. But I felt like there was something bigger than money, something more important than just living life.

My second go came with a discovery that I’ve been living in my head for too long, living for the wrong cause and “chasing unicorns”. What I mean by that is I was in a search for a great fucking idea to make me rich. I had all the skills, discipline for hard work and perfect timing but no idea for a unicorn I wanted so bad. I was stuck in the loop. Was stuck in my head. I was so fucking stuck that it made me sick and I decided to let go of that idea of me becoming some kind of a hot shot new rich billionaire. I had some money and time and I started to blog in Estonian. Called it “Zidrun”. Went for some adventures with my free time and money like Dubai, Egypt etc… Read books and was just thinking. I knew that there must be something more than just… being, thinking, contemplating. At one point I was tired of being useless and I decided to found a digital agency, or maybe I’ve already founded it but I called it out for the first time. Decided to let go, fuck all and just pursue the agency. Caught some serious wind in the wings. Still doing that, you know - developing websites, coming up with strategies etc… But this chapter was about letting go of my illusions. Start from somewhere and trust the path.

But since then and always I’ve known that I want to do something more. Something meaningful. Something that would put my time into good use. Something that would help humanity, help the world. Plant a seed that would eventually grow into a strong, green, healthy tree creating flora and fauna around itself and keep on growing.

So what’s changed? I keep waking up. I keep waking up so far. I keep waking up and still not making any actual impact on scale. One day my time is over and I won’t be able to wake up. Time has come too valuable, too valuable to waste it on meaningless things and adventures. I keep searching for the meaning of it. Not the meaning of life, but meaning for my time. If not yesterday, then not tomorrow either. I will do this now. That’s right. I’ve understood the power of now so deep, that every waking hour I use my mind to think of one simple question of how I can create positive change in this world.

This is me getting sick of random discoveries. This is me deciding to search for a path in a structured way with only one goal in mind, nothing more.

Why? I’m not going to dig too deep into this topic - the why for me has come to me in a very complex series of foundational thoughts and insights to myself and the external world. For me, this is a battle for good and evil. The simple answer to it is that my battle is to output the max amount of goodness and positive change opposing evil. I want to help the good cause. Ofcourse, I’m not naive or anything like that - there is no definite good or no definite evil, but from my end of the rope, my intention is pure and serving for the positive change is a core value. Along the way there might come some sacrifices for greater good, but… that’s the way it is. No good without bad and vice versa.

So this is my mission. Mission for Mission. Mission to find a way to use my skills and capitalism for positive change on scale. Serving the cause.

But don’t get me wrong. I’m not here to fill or mask my ego’s dark sides. They’re there and I fully relish them. I do not give a fuck overall, I don’t feel the NEED to serve, before all that comes me and myself and other core values in me. But as I’ve found myself and I can deal and live with myself, I WANT to serve.

To conclude - I think everyone should be able to take care of themselves and rely on internal rather than external. But as the cards in this poker game are not dealt equal, I want to create more equal opportunities and make the game playable for all of us.

I will conduct massive research, search for gaps, search for problems, search for opportunities to solve them, search for people who might want to help, and I will do anything that needs to be done to find it all. To find a problem big enough to solve.

There has to be a way. I'm fighting for this.
Fuck anyone who tries to tell me otherwise or lead me away from this path.

If you want to contribute to my thoughts or challenge me to think in new ways or really, anything - just write it down and hit that fucking “send” button. Anyone and anything can help. Don’t be afraid. I’m not.

Frank's Mission for Mission

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